Ah.. Where to begin? Let me talk you through it..
2013 started off really great for me. January was full of butterflies and flowers. I was on the cloud nine for most of the days, smiling from ear to ear and laughing until my face hurts. January was all about trust and faith. Also in January, I get to know what I really want off of a man, how they should be treating me. And I’ll forever cherish that, Thank you :)
Just when I thought things couldn’t get any better, February strikes in. February was so so good.. I travelled through south east asia with the best companion I could ever wish for. February was a revelation. February convinced me that there’s so much more out there. That I shouldn’t be satisfied of what I have today, that I should be full of eager and hunger.
Then in March, I had to let go of quite a few things. I learnt that not everyone who came into my life has to stay and fight the battle with me. I may have hurt some people at this time of the year.. Maybe one or two? It’s not that I want to hurt those people, It’s just that I believe the saying “Yes, people grow old together. But sometimes they just grow apart.”
So April happened hahahahaha.. Was probably the funniest month of the year. I met new people and they were just so silly in general! Made fun of life like it was one big fat joke. Did stupid things over and over just to have a good laugh with my friends. April was loaaadss of fun but then it was empty at the same time. I couldn’t care less though hahaha I was busy having fun.
May.. May.. May.. There’s not much to say about May. The door was open through out the month. People came in and then walked out so easily. The only thing that I could say about May is the fact that May was a poison in disguise!
JUNE! Welcoming a new member to the family, my brother got engaged to one beautiful lady. I got myself a sister hihihi. If you don’t know me, I’m the only girl in the family. So yeah.. I was so excited to have her in my life. And she was so nice to me, I feel like I’ve known her my whole life. Just like what I had told you before, May was a poison and finally showed its true color in June. I’VE BEEN COMPROMISED!
Ok now.. I’m just gonna be real honest, I’m not proud of July but then again I don’t regret it either. July was all about decisions. I decided that I want to be happy and be selfish with every aspect in my life. I was ready to hurt people just to make myself happy. I don’t know what happened to me in July, all I can say is that July was full of lust. I lied. I cheated. I cried. I laughed.
Wow?? Time flies. I can’t believe I’m talking about August already. August is my favorite month. Every single year, since I was 13, August has a special spot in my heart. In 2012, August was amazing, probably the most amazing August I had in my life (so far) Living up to 2012’s expectation, my August in 2013 failed miserably..
September. I was so stubborn back then. I refused to admit that I had changed. Did everything I can just to make everyone believe, to make myself believe, that I didn’t change. That I’m still the old me, someone who is strong and will never lose in one stupid-easy battle. But I did lost.. I was just too stubborn to admit it.
Yay! October. My closest friends were worried about me in October but I convinced them that I’m happy. Which was true! October was beautiful hehehehe. For what it’s worth, I had fun along the proccess. What happened, what I felt, what I said, they were all true. I didn’t fake any of those moments. That’s all that matters for me now.
Oh snap. It’s November. I feel like, this year, November has not only 30 days but 60!! November was moving too slowwww.. In November I get to distinguished the real ones from the fake ones. I get to defined what “naive” really means. Met one particular person, a girl, that would do anything to see me fall. She pretended to be my friend. And I, of course, suspected nothing at all. Fuck you, but I grew stronger :)
Oh my God.. December. IT HAS BEEN AMAZING. December has been a combination of greatness, laughters, rainbow, unicorns, and all those beautiful things in one package. My dad finished his study, My brother got an amazing job offer, The other one just had a beautiful big wedding celebration. Everyone seems to be really happy this month and I couldn’t be more proud of them. I’m getting close to my family and friends more than ever. Met new people, nice ones. Someone even inspired me to be a better version of myself. I’m on my way!
2013 in general, was really hard for me. Maybe it was a tie between tears and laughters?? But I’ll forever grateful that I have these amazing family and friends of mine. Seriously, without you all, I will never be who I am today. 2013 was all about acceptance. Finally getting to know the truth that has been kept for years. Finally hearing the words that I have been dying to hear. Finally knowing that some people are just too pathetic to be helped, and it is not my role to rescue them.
I understand that 2014 and yeas after that will be harder than 2013. But, I can honestly say that I am now a changed woman. I have grown into someone different from who I was in 2012. I can see pictures in the better perspective than I did in 2012. I have evolved. Last but not least.. I’m proud of myself.